anna

Bleh. Confused.

I don’t really know how to deal with this situation. Im back to where I started — the beginning. In the begin I didn’t like you much but as we got closer I ended up really falling for you, then we went through a rough patch, then I fell really really hard. But recently, since you’ve been away I’ve felt differently about everything. I think I’m falling out of it and there are two things that I don’t want to lose. Your family And the fact that I am your number one priority and that youre the first thing I think of when I wake up in the morning. I plan my days around being with you…but as more of a friend. I just don’t have those same feelings anymore. Kisses and cuddling is nice, but I don’t really want anything else. And I don’t know how to fix it. I dont know if the reason I’m holding on is for my own selfish reasons, or it’s because I really love you anymore. I’m so confused. I hate this, and even though these feelings went away three months into it, exactly two years later, I don’t think they’re going away. Crap. Advice anyone?